After no news from Big Sis since the other mother went into hospital Twin and I learnt this weekend that she is out. Twin noticed that she had responded to a post Uncle (mums brother) had put on facebook and quickly checked Mum's facebook account to see what what was going on.
Not only was mum out of the hospital but she was telling her friends that she only went in voluntarily because she was so isolated. So completely ignoring the fact that she was committed (again). So once again mum has started to re write what actually happened and will convince herself that it's the truth.
When we were speaking to her the next stage was to try and push the blame onto us and make us do more and more to support her, while bad mouthing us to family if we dared refuse. Now we are not speaking to her we are worried about what will happen next.
The first option is that she will continue to ignore us but still blame us to all and sundry for anything bad that has happened, this will probably mean her landing on Big Sis as she is still in contact. The second is that she will try to re-engage us in her life. This could start out small with letters/ calls etc or she may try to pull something dramatic like turning up at the house or at work.
The second option is why Twin and I are worried. She has form for doing this when she feels she is not getting enough attention, like the Christmas were she announced she had been shop lifting or the time she made up a rape allegation. Even when we were kids she would make up stories about us to get attention from her friends - I was supposed to be an anorexic and then a closet lesbian and Big Sis was supposedly on drugs and had aids.
None of this was true but it got her lots of attention which is what she is after.
The problem is that Twin and I are now on tender hooks waiting for the big drama which may or may not kick off. When I cut contact originally she was in and out of hospital for a while, some of the illness was real but not all, but when Twin cut her off we expected something big but nothing happened till Big Sis put her foot down 8 months later.
So for the next month I will be a paranoid mess expecting her to jump out at me around every corner, every phone call will make me jump and white cars like hers will make me want to hide and that's what really depresses me that even after a year she has the power to make me feel like this.
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